icecreamgal

Recently, I have been asked this question a few times already....
People wants to know how i am feeling..

Hmm..  not exactly so that I can feel the excitement yet.  I am giving myself more time - probably by mid November, i should get excited.
Its more of an anticipation and a mixture of anxiety..
Becos i have been relaxed for so long and now i find that i have little time to get all the stuffs ready for my baby Faith.
Clothes are easy....But what about the cot, the space in our room, her drawer of stuffs - things like Ru Yu Oil, thermometer, nose cleaner(?) <-- i am a bit fearful of using this... so im gg to ask more ppl if i need to get this appartus first (Otherwise the alternative is to suck from her nose...!!!!!????) Erhm.... i think i may get this eventually.
Many other small stuffs...need to start to wash her clothes too.. Need to buy special detergent for baby's clothes, special detergent to wash baby's bottles etc....
I better start to turn the other half of my 648 bedroom into a baby room - once the cot is delivered and set up (14th Nov!)- we shall then (have more idea to/ be prompted to) appropriate the space. Now, its more like "Hi Faith, mummy is not ready yet okay... you take your time to grow inside..while i get ready".
No... dun tell me how many weeks i have left - Wait, NO...Dun remind me how many days i am closer to Dec 10th..
Wait... give me some more time..
So, u see....  im not excited yet.
Once I am ready and waiting at home for her to be ready - that is call excitement...

Still got thousand and one questions (even b4 i set up to drip The Body shop Green Tea essential oil into the oil burner, i had to consult the internet first) - but i am blessed with many ppl (experienced and first timers) who are around me and I can call on them if i have any problems.
Even when im shopping for a receiving blanket for the baby - i will sms to my "panel of mothers" to get their opinion..  I smsed them b4 i got my nursing bras...really thank God and appreciate them for their willing help and guidance.
My panel of mothers: Joanne (relative -1st time mum), Catherine (Weehow's wife, 1st time mum, delivered at ESH ), Josephine (my cousin -2nd time but more prepared mother), sometimes, Jacqueline, my ex-colleague. Sometimes, Eileen (2nd time mum, relative). I also can consult my current colleagues, Sin Wan and Joleen. Joleen, 2nd time mum after taking a break for 12 years -  have passed me a couple of useful stuffs, like breast milk bags, breast cream and disaposable breast pads... Sin Wan, a first time mum this year, she is very willing to share and initiated a few conversations with me. She seemed more excited than me when talking abt childbirth and babies! Look at how she smile! (Hmm..... Can after childbirth give me this kind of glow too?)

Im just so..... 'market research' plus 'survey' person...In the end, Catherine's advice was to get a swaddle or blanket that comes with hood, or i can give her a cap to wear when Faith is out... So yar, there i am, haven got the 'receiving' blanket for my child.
But i am waiting... waiting for a day for my busy julian to be free and we can grab those stuffs at one go - in his car and into our room! I have done my research and the one stop place to go would be Kiddy Palace (As recommended by Catherine too).
As for myself, i need to get pads, more disposable underwears, think of what i am going to wear in hospital stay, my shower stuffs, bring along breast pump also... ... etc --> this is for my hospital bag.

Do i sound like i am lamenting? Do i sound like im complaining (already!!!???)?
Gosh! This is the part - i have been enjoying myself before in the past months... and now -this is the part 'Crossing over to Parenthood'.. and its happening. Lets freak out! HAHA..

No... i dun see YS or Weehow freak out... they are so cool.
And i think to myself, if teenagers can be mothers, i can be one too! What big difficulties can they face that i can't?
At this thought, part my brain relaxes and say "Sub-sub-water lar!" (While the other half doubts... )
YS and Lynn were relaxed on Sunday for Baby Jovia's 1st month party. Lynn's mum was taking care of Baby Jovia. Even after we alerted YS -  cos we saw her daughter red-faced and was 'pushing' in her sarong- so we (all 3 girls) thinks Jovia had poo-ed, but the 'cool' father only thinks she had farted, can continue to let her sleep in her lovely pink sarong... (Hmm.. then wats the baby cot for?)
The only thing i heard good of sarong is that the baby head will be round - as compared to baby sleeping in a cot - cos we have to take effort to flip her head so when her head is still soft, she doesn't press on one side of her head for too long... (I need more info on this too! - I shall ask Mrs Wong this Sunday!)
Yes, baby cot - So i saw the 2nd example of a baby cot under-utilised. Apparently, Weehow's daughter Gerelle likes to sleep with mummy on her bed. So poor daddy have to sleep on the floor... (DUH?)
Thats not all - Babies are also particular about:
- (the brand of) milk bottles they use 
- their diapers (Its like they have super bum-skin, can differentiate what brands they like...and what they dun like) 
Not sure if there are any more we, as parents, have to sacrifice and pay attention to.

BUT i know one last thing on my baby list is the baby pram. This is kinda a big investment (other than the cot), so i just 'feel' we need to let her be comfy in her own 'car car' when in future, we bring her out.. I cannot make any decision for her now (except the kind pf specs we roughly want - cos we are the co-users). I would prefer Baby Faith sit on something she likes, then i will buy for her. Easier for adults to adapt than babies, right?
Not yet think about the baby car seat yet..

Last Friday, i took the chance to go back to mum's place for dinner.. as DD was in Bangkok. We kept in touch via phone calls whenever Jul was free to talk, he would update me.
Saturday afternoon was KTV-ing at International Building/ Partyworld with Sis. It was a good time, the songs still ringing in my ears and i so wished to go sing again soon.
But i had to forgive myself for i was unable to sing properly now - with tummy upwards, i guess my diaphragm have been squashed too. So is my abdomen area.. so i find i do not get enough breath easily when singing and i cannot project my voice properly now. No 'power' in my singing liao.. No more Zhang Huimei crooning - only songs which requires my throat pitching.. But still it was good time - i enjoyed my bubble green tea. Hehe..
Then while we exited International Building -  i saw a familiar face entering the building and then upon second glance, i recognised her and naturally smiiled at her, as if i saw my relative. She was  Xiang yun. She returned my smile. Very friendly and warm. She was with her daughter. But i did not see Edmund. Prob he was walking too fast in front of the mother and daughter. I only managed to see his back view - thin and the likes of a 'teenager' built.
Across the bridge to Far East Plaza, accompanied Sis to get her caridgans. And saw another two celebs, Lai Yi Ling and the guy co-host with her in "On The Beat 2 都是大发现". The skies turned darker as we came out from shopping. Sis was planning to go Pasir Ris, while i need to go Marina Square to meet Jeannie and Singyin.
I saw my bus 124 and hopped on hurriedly, without giving Sis the goodbye hugs.. I was gan cheong -cos i did not want to be stuck in the rain..(with little cash) -the ATM at Far East had long queue...
It started to rain cats and dogs. I was glad the bus stopped at the bus stop closer to the entrance of the City Hall entrance near St Andrew's Cathedral. So, after some waiting, i took the 'leap of faith' and walked to the shelter and walked along it to reach the entrance of City Hall mrt. Phew!
Singyin was shopping at Mango. Soon Jeannie joined us. We headed to Mothercare and went to shop for a gift for Baby Jovia. Cos we were attending her baby shower the next day..
In the end we bought her a set of rompers - with cute elephant and mouse design. After dinner at Waruku... we went to Fox and topped up with another pretty dress...
Conclusion: shopping for baby's stuff will be most likely to make me bankrupt next year!
I better thicken up my savings!!! (Faintz)
At the same time, i think this will strengthen my judgement on "needs" and "wants" - especially for myself, the household, and for Baby Faith.

I am blessed to receive a bag of baby clothings from Eileen, my relative's daughter last night. I have not "ransacked" it, but they looked new to me. I think that bag alone saved me a lot of money - just like how my hand me down pregnancy clothes from Liyen saved me bucks on getting maternity denim jeans.

Jul returned on Sunday morning 1am. I was so happy he bought so many stuffs, for me and baby.
Jul is not of 'shopping' material.... He does not know how to buy girl's stuff.
But consider he did it for me, shopping alone -So, i have to accept his answer when he says: I bought it cos it looked good on the mannequin.."
I can ony smile sweetly at him.. becos i see his gesture, his thoughts... not what he actually bought.
He bought me a slipper, a dress and 3 tops. He bought Faith a dress( but paid by his boss, Reggie) and 2 shoes. His colleague, Lilian bought Faith three Osh Kosh tops in yellow, pink and red colour and a pink mini skirt. Good for her when she starts walking, she says..
I think we need to categorise her waredrobe then... and keep reminding myself Faith has enough! So we do not spur on her clothes even as she gets older! (Cos ppl already pre-buy for her liao)
Jul also bought for himself a yellow slipper, 3 "man-bermudas", belts, ties and tailored a pants and some shirt for himself. Missed each other so much, we chatted in bed until we were tired.. and drifted off into sleep.

Going into Wednesday! Tads fast!
I will try to enjoy my week - the Team returned from Korea today (Tuesday) - and our day started with gifts like: lipgloss, faceshop facial masks, seaweeds.....magnets, pens. 
But im also glad they are back - i can settle many pending things..

More blessings, Lord... Thank you God for keeping me (sane)...Thank you for your great love showered on me each day! =)

Take care and have a good week! Keep you updated again!
Love, Me & "moving- a- lot" Baby Faith 

"If you see me getting uglier, you will see Baby Faith getting prettier..." me to Jeannie at Marina Square Fox, uponing seeing the price of a pretty baby dress...
I am joking. yes.....  =P

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